Although I have written many of my victims individually and submitted them to a DOC letter bank, there are many people who I have affected, and although they may not be an official victim I still want all of those affected by any of my actions to know how sorry I am.

I would like to start by first taking full accountability and responsibility for my actions. I could say it was drugs, age, doctor diagnosis or any number of things but in reality, those are just excuses. I am responsible for my actions. I made some very bad choices with my young life that lead into worse choices. These choices have impacted and even hurt people who don't even know me. The feeling of this is not something you think of when you’re an addict. Only after the pieces of your life start to come back together do you start to think of all those you have affected.

I think of all those I have wronged and wished that I had a way to let them know that I feel deep regret and sorrow for my actions. These feelings are not a byproduct of my incarceration; it is a byproduct of living a healthy and clean family-oriented life. I now see all those ugly and horrible qualities I had and want those I've affected to know that I didn't just continue that trend. I found that if I changed for the better, I could bring change others’ lives. I now find joy in helping others. A large part of my drive is from the guilt that I have from all the wrong I have done.

I feel that if I can help others maybe I can put them on a path they otherwise wouldn't have been on, and there might be one less crime committed, or person victimized due to my actions. I want to right my wrongs so badly. If I could sit next to every victim, I've ever had just to say sorry and let them tell me all the things they wish they could say to me I would. So, since I can't do that, I'll do this, and if by some infinitely small chance they see this... here is what I'd like to say. My actions changed the course of your life through no choice of your own. I see that now. It was wrong of me to act as though I was the only person who mattered in the world. My actions were horrible and disgusting and in no way reflect my character now. I do not ask for forgiveness, I only wish you to know that I feel guilt, embarrassment, regret, shame along with many other emotions for all I have done. I wish grace and love for you and your family, I pray that you are well, and that your life has meaning and you are loved. Again, I am deeply sorry. I know how little words can mean and aside from my actions this is all I have to give.

Sincerely, Ryan Stone